The Truth Is--, people always behave the very way they are, not according to your wishes...

The--books I'm reading are Science Fiction and I'm sort of enjoying them anything to get away from the real sand untrustworthy of life--just finished one and wondering if I should try another--holding off on that decision..until later today--also wondering about the space antiques take up--is it worth keeping them around--or letting them go to the highest bidder--they mean nothing to me they are from my wife's family so they don't hold any value except maybe the money they could bring for the kids..guy cam rout to look at them and wanted some but not all would like to come back after he's thought about them--seem good to me --I'm in no mood to pressure anyone about anything--sometimes I get upset at the slightest thing--and then other times I'm cool as a cucumber--and it just washes off my back and no big deal..wonder if it has anything to do with the drugs I'm taking--always can blame it on them--not that I want to --but you'd think doctor's would have it down pat by now--but guess not--

   Janet is really trying hard to keep everything in perspective--as far as what's happening here with her and her kids and then there's me--always a spark plug around the edge--waiting to be ignited for some reason or other--a fuse lit and going down to the mother load...
   Dogs and cat who got bit by copperheads have turned out O.K. but it was slow go at first--just goes to show the bodies do have good resistance--can't say what would happen if it was a human--one man was getting wood from his wood pile and a copperhead got him and he died--they found him at his wood-pile don't know the whole truth of that but it sounded good coming from the person who told it-
it happened a good many years back but at least I knew of the guy--and had seen him several times before his death--he lived down the road we turn in on to get to our place..going to try slow down my intake of beverages--like coffee, cokes, and liquid to see if that will stop me from having to get up at all different hours of the night--usually about three or four times a night--I going to slow down starting round 5 in the afternoon--this will be my first try tonight--we'll see

  This has been about the fourth or fifth day it started out looking like rain--cloudy today and chilly after all those warm days last week--kids started back to school after their spring break--

A neighbor came over to tell me he was selling out--leaving after being my neighbor for at least 30 years--didn't ask him why--didn't ask him anything really just sort of sat there and waited for him to say it--but he never did he just said he came by to say he was leaving and enjoyed living here and he was gone--I don't think we ever had any cross words--or bad feelings toward each other--and when you have that in a neighbor it has a good feeling to it--you know he's over there and if you wanted or needed something--you could call on him--he sold over two hundred acres for a little over 9,000 dollars an acre--most real estate people try to sell the land as close to 10,000- dollars an acre--so he came out pretty good --I think but really i don't know where he was going and if his life there is going to be better off--he's been a good soul a little off sometimes because he drank--but he never hurt me or mine and he did help me out just like I did help him sometimes...

Outside my window the leaves are moving can't see the rain but when the leaves move it tells me some of the drops are hitting them--did my exercises this morning and my knee seems to be hurting when OI stretch out my leg wonder which exercise is bothering the knee--will have to take it easy until I do find the one irritating it--can't have anything hurting at the moment--to busy and gardening season is coming down on me--have to use a shovel--and dig some to plant--not going to be getting down on my knees --get my grandson to do that...

Have this new cat --well he's not really new but we haven't had a cat in a while--he's a go get her--and we call him Oliver--don't ask --cause I don't know someone told me the other day what his name was-he been running around like he owns the place and I guess if you're a cat like him you probably think you do--we do everything for him--and feed him rotisseriare chicken when we get it and we do a lot--he's gotten huge and he isn't slow--but he likes to sit on your chest and be smothered in kisses and rub all along his jaws and face eyes--included--

Had a friend come out today unannounced--just dropped in--there's nothing big happening around here no big deal--he stood right outside my back door where he parked his automobile and took a whiz--not uncommon way out here sort of made him feel right at home--he use to come out and hunt--16 years ago--long time for not seeing someone--but I tell he was a fast talking man--nervous, from the city and had lost everything--this happened a while back of course he was just bringing me up to snuff--felt for him--could see the pain in his eyes--and the feelings were very tender--at certain places in the conversation--but he kept on keeping on--until he told me his wife couldn't remember anything--wanted to know if he could come back up and start hunting again--I just sat there we--were outside--sitting in two old lawn chairs--I started noticing things about him--he had gained so much weight--not losing any hair--but wow-did he have a problem with his finger nails--there were no finger nails--they were down in the quick--I don't mean --what I do mean is there was absolutely no finger nails at all--gone na-da--they had been eaten down so far that they were gone--don't believe I've ever seen that before--made me re-evaluate his whole being--as far as he and I were concerned--scary--the pace out here to people who don't know--is a little off setting--

Meditating into reality--I went up to the mountain top I yelled: I love you--
there was no "echo"

Anger robs the individual of the ability to concentrate...

You only get on someone's nerves when you're asking questions...

Genius is the power of lighting one's own fire...

The truth was coming, slowly into focus out of the mass of disconnected detail...

I was to become involved in an event that would test my soul as it had seldom been tested before...

Real life is neither neat nor comprehensive...

I am always thrashing around in the toils of circumstance and can't seem to understand how I get myself enmeshed in them...and when I finely see some light--I tell myself never again--but before long I'm already mixed up in one again---the nemesis has found me ..no matter where I'm located...a

Routine helps people cope...

Chatter, or blather--dense word play---

All situations in life are lulu's---

I'm always having to rescue myself from the consequences of my repeated follies...

My mind has the concentration of a butterfly, fluttering inconsequentially over every possible thought that comes to mind...

No values can be accepted on faith and relied upon...

Spot of conversation

Magic is no more than the product of knowledge others don't share...

There are no flukes in war--trickery is a legitimate principle of warfare...

At peace with himself

You earn respect by giving it to others...

Marriage means commitment...PERIOD

Words were a disguise for thought for intentions and to hide behind

They were laughing at their own weakness, their defenselessness under the grip of emotion

"Whenever I hear the word culture I reach for my gun" Goering

Some say there's a knife edge between genius and madness, others that it's an infinite capacity for taking pains...

Why is it she wondered, the older a women becomes, the more she regrets not having gone to bed with more men...

Repetition breeds routine...

You must not turn your back on old friends

Some of my memories may not match up with some of the memories you want to remember...

Fate deals honestly with all . She will not compromise though she may delay...

Talk about not getting frustrated I've got 6 dogs--none of them actually mine--except one --all the others were left out at the top of my road or left stranded cause people didn't want them--threw them out--discarded like old shoes or clothes--of course they are sweet and handsome dogs because all dogs unless hurt or ill are wonderful--can't help but be--and what did I do--took them in--now I can't get rid of them unless I do the same thing--in other words pass them on--but every time I go and feed them their eyes say hey you can't do this to us look how sweet we are--last night for instance--I came home after a harrowing trip to the grocery store--I'm old O.K.--and I had to walk all over Wal-Mart--trying to find certain items--which to my knowledge has never been in the same place twice--and still I had other things I had to do--to make all trips to town count--we pile on all the things needed in one trip--well when we came home--the dogs had gone in the garage and pulled some old sacked up clothes in plastic bags and strewn them here and there and everywhere--I was tired and mostly livid--thinking I can't even get in the back door--cause I'm so tired-- well I had to pick all the trash(which it was now in small pieces) up and talk about cold--coldest night yet--I finally made it to the back door opened it went into the kitchen and found the Boxer--had torn the Cat food bag to smithereens--I had had enough--I took my walker and forced it into her-- mad-- I couldn't see straight and my grandson--said yelled actually what are you doing and thank heavens I came to my senses--and I've been apologizing to Sammy ever since--where do we lose it--why do we lose it--can't we accept what happens as something that happens and go from there--I use the words GD a whole lot and I'm trying to hold off using it but frustration gangs up on me in piles--I guess I feel I getting more than my share--what a fool--I know the word frustration--but when it backs up and rears it's ugly head I'm usually to far gone to stop myself from cussing or reacting in some stupid manner--I'm going to say again after the 100 time--I will be calmer--and try to act with more aplomb--grow up--not be as stressed--in the long run what does all this matter--

The world has some problems all of them make individual problems seem minor--or of no importance--but small individual problems mount up just like a ticking bomb--where do all these problems come from--inside people--there like someone lighting  fuse--and standing back and watching the fuse go to the source--I don't know whether to talk to people or not--whatever you say may ignite what ever the problem is--how do you find the sources of these problems and alleviate what seems to be the problem--who knows--I certainly don't--and I don't know if I've ever really tried--

Just watch a video that showed three grandmothers smoking pot for the first time --at different time intervals they would go back--eating , talking, and the red eyes--the getting comfortable,,the stupid questions--the answers having to be thought about--and the long stares--all of it caught on tape--wonderful--I got up early this morning thinking I had some things I needed to take care before the house got rolling--you know before the grandkids--got up , the cats and dogs started moving around--the coffee made--the dogs let out and let in--dogs fed--coffee ready--getting going--turning down the heat many and varied are the things that need doing before one can start doing what they need to do...got some of those small tangerines--they call some sporty name now--I noticed there's no big fruit in the stores not here in the southeast--I think the fruit people are holding out this year for stocking stuffers--they can make more money with that in mind--they ought start sending out packages for stocking stuffers--only--

A walk in the woods for the soul--also for the express purpose of seeing what out there the little jewels season--not forgetting the big stuff--but--ever thing seems so much clearer--small 5" hemlocks--moss of all kinds--the clear stream--the cold stream--the rocks that stick out of the bank--a sound that can be heard so clearly--small ferns--a hong Japanese. maple seedling--sedum ternatum--Galax aphelia ,it's all so gray and brown--the crisp air--not many leaves on the trees--most of the time I don't think I may see anything I want to bring back so usually I don't take any digging tools with me-and end up digging with my fingers--putting what I find in my pocket or in my hand-the soil is cold--and I always say next time--I'll bring what I need--

I can't ever remember thinking that something was going to be easy and it was...it's always just a little bit more than I thought it was--like I've been without pain medication for at least three days--and to- day I'm back on them-- what a difference--the only thing missing is the get and go I use to have--it isn't there any more..it just gone--by the wayside--out side it's 15 degrees--and all the plants have shriveled up and are hugging themselves close--the sun is coming through the trees--and I can see how some the plants aren't going to like all that sunlight on themselves--some old fashioned boxwoods--seem to be loving it--I can hear them talking to the other plants--hey passes this ain't nothing --wait till the snows comes--all I can think about is brunswick stew that combination of chicken, tomatoes, lima beans,and corn simmered with all those seasonings in an old iron soup kettle-and an abundance of cornbread---
















No body ever knows the whole of everything...

Caution and non-intervention are the arthritis of patronage...

My daughter is a person that's lives in a minute and the minute is going to be her last one so everything is on the spur of the moment with her--then and there and done it--because there is no reason to postpone joy--yesterday she didn't pick up the kids at the bus and it was just below--30degrees--they walked about a half mile--they came in and I could tell they were first off cold--and then after I felt their cheeks and hands--decided I wasn't going to worry about it--when our kids were growing up--there were times-when ours had to walk--now that I can look back on it--what could it have hurt--the walk--is absolutely beautiful a country mountain road--Forrest right down to the sides of the road--and very few driveways--and hardly anyone ever on the road--yes I do worry--but with Ethan with her--I feel somewhat better--not completely without concern--I have my doubts about my daughter--but what can someone do--have her followed--take the car away--stop the gas tickets--tell her she can't do this and she can't do that--afraid--my timing is a little on those kind of things--like that girl killed in Virginia--who knew--it drives me batty --just thinking about our young--people especially with all these wars going on--big and little wars--but it's drying up two major things--our Youth--and our Treasury---all the stupid stuff we get blamed for just for helping out--something is wrong folks--sounds kind of stupid when you say it that way and then write it out--

Lets not delight ourselves with bitter sweet pleasures of renunciation...

Be not another if thou canst be yourself

Faith has almost been refined out of existence...

Don't chew eh ? Don't know what yuh're missin !
Nothin' like a cud o ' good terbacy
t' tone up a man's system, is what I allus say!

You are your own mountain but you grow up in reverse--there's "nothing" equal to what you are--you don't start off with a broad base a  pin prick wouldn't even cover it--think of a flash light--on a foggy or smoky night--the flash light casts it's glow --the beam from your hand grows--

A riddle wrapped in a mystery inside an enigma...

In other words, the Greeks brought their Gods down into their daily life and by so doing added dignity to its most commonplace details...

Stem cured feed

Science is a process

We attract what we are...

I have had too much experience of life to attempt to tell a really rich person anything...

One cannot live on essences...

Facts not dialectics are weapons--truth not emotion will keep us free...

Well I made it through another Christmas--and through the bowl games--both are becoming a horrible experience--what to do about it--ha--when something gets started there's hardly anyway you can stop it --now-a-days--you can start a grass roots thing--like old time politics--by standing outside you door and screaming your head off--you can call all your friends --you can tell everybody you meet--you can put up posters--you can write it on all writeable surfaces--you can buy up advertising space--in a bunch of magazines--

My Life with "loved" Animals

This is a long love affair with animals that have lived with us and have befriended us, and trusted us to take care of them--some we did others well"life" led astray--or we failed--all will never be forgotten--Megan--the Queen  a better Siamese never lived--she controlled by just being

 Rome-Megan's son should have been a Prince never had a girl friend--never bothered a soul--just stood around and played with leaves and smelled the flowers--caught a few mice--didn't kill or eat them played and let them go--strange cat--

We live as we do today way out in the woods--a lot of people have let their animals out in the woods they thought to fend for themselves but we were at the end of the road they thought no one lived on--and as a consequence we were left with the problem of their unwanted animals--and so we met a new friend--some were abused--most were definitely hungry--some were in ill health some were pregnant and some needed immediate attention living wise--we took in stride with what we had available at the time--

Honey Bear was the first dog we ever had in the mountains of North Georgia she set the pace for all who followed--she received the brunt of a insecure man who was having his problems living in the land of the free--some times we weren't on the same page or she was just being a dog and at the time I was not in the mood--she ate well--she slept in the house--and she tore things up that weren't in their place and again the man took it out on her--blessed to have ever known her--and sorry for every thing I ever did--to her--talk about a man's best friend--I cry even now after all the years

Now where were we--oh yea I can't list these in any order--I'll take them as they come off the top of the deck of pictures--Moby a pit bull the absolute sweetest dog I have ever known--loved to ride wherever I went--the only problem he wanted to get out and go with me --not to many people appreciated a pit bull around the house --you know like a shark in their swimming pool--he wasn't a fighter but he was a growler--and cost me a deer friend of my wives and I don't think she ever forgave me--she came over when my wife wasn't home--I was doing something nothing bad or uncool--she drove unannounced with her two grand children--she met Moby for the first time--her grandson ran up to Moby put his hand out to pet him and Moby growled and stood his ground--she (a German) screamed and I came running--she said he threatened her grandson and I just arriving on the scene said awe Fredericka he hasn't ever bitten a soul and he wouldn't hurt a flea--you would have thought I slapped her--she looked at me and got her grandchildren and never returned--she laid down the law to my wife said I-- said horrible things to her and all but called her a liar--and folks I liked Fredericka and I swear I would never hurt her in any way--so I can only say sorry--but I don't have any idea to this day what I could have done to hurt my wife's best friend--

 and another here with my favorite of Boxers--"Harvey" with a long tail given to us cause we lived in the country--the couch was there's and they only shared it with their favorite cats

we ended up buying another couch which they shared also with their favorite cats--which I happen to have a picture of--the last cat I'll have to think about what his name was--

 

Where we lived was way back in the woods--you could possibly say we lived beyond the woods--my wife sister hated to come to our house because we lived 1 and 3/4 miles up a dirt road--and they always had new or shiny cars--and our road was not well maintained--so others got the idea that nobody could live this far back in the woods and survive--so they brought dogs, and cats not wanted to let them go out in the boonies--and guess where they ended up after they started getting hungry--and they were always greeted with food and then of course my daughter had to give them a name--did we ever go out looking for a dog or a cat--oh yea after we fell in love with boxers we always went to Boxer rescue when one died of old age--

Yes we had other animals--but not as enjoyable as Cats and Dogs--Cinnamon was a fine horse--Janet was 8 years old in this picture--she always been my pride and joy--as she got older she went her own way--hard to take but there you have life--in all it's different paths

Janet with Rome I guess her favorite cat--I know he was mine after his mother Megan--it's hard to take all these pictures at once--thinking back to all the times and what happened to all these animals

Most died of old age and watching the age creep on them and watch them waste away--hard and sad--but can one enjoy the best and not take the worst--h-mmm I don't know--

Secrets

But a virtue in excess may slither into a weakness...

We are the universal provider...

Indigestion is a great begetter of cynicism...

No woman worth marrying is nothing but a wife...

Lies keep the teeth white...an old gypsy saying

The Rich are always envied...

When wine is in--wit is out...

Forgetfulness always leaves a trail of consequences...

Real religion is evolutionary and revolutionary...

Does speech convey intensity of anguish...

If the objective of conscious universal intelligence is to enjoy it's life--one of our important...jobs would be to improve the quality of our individual life-We can do this by making life more enjoyable , both for ourselves and those about us...this is a process of intelligent growth... -Life's essence

"Living Energy" is not limited...

Affirmative thought has never been put back on the tracks...

A principle is simply a basic rule of law...

Everything has been absolute--

We have our own media " Physical Senses "

Life is a process within an evolutionary process formulating life's essence--Correct--Just checking...

Great connoisseurs and great collectors are not alway nice people...

In short, it was the easiest way out...

A bad reputation without money to sweeten it; is a heavy burden

As you grow old, religion becomes a lonely business...

''Money illiteracy" is as restrictive as any other illiteracy...

Emotions are not principles...

You have abilities, but you have not refined it to the full extent of your capabilities...

Trying to bring order back out of chaos seems to meet like that's what we're always doing--like going back as swards out of just about everything we do--always trying for just a little more--in exchange for what-- only-- God knows ?? one man controlling the whole U.S.of A.--or the world wouldn't make that much difference--always speaking from a distance place--live from....Sammy and Owen must have gone back to bed they haven't bothered me about letting them out--so everything changes--evolves--ever-changing--systems, to the ones now in use--all I can see--cutting down on who can come into the country--not for anything but slowing down growth--and taking care of where we are--and what we've got--taking all do consideration--into where our future is going and are we going in that direction--if not getting on track the fastest way we can before we do any more stupid things--that'll make us regret that we didn't take care of this business earlier..when things start getting out of hand--we usually look who's to blame and by the time we get back to the problem in the first place--it almost doesn't matter anymore--whoever was involved in it better not do that anymore--call it a slap on the wrist--or money under the table--boy has the wind picked up--a big gust long one at that--came down from up the valley--trees bent further than I've seen in a while--just had a call from my daughter--she's at the bank--where she has some check's I asked her to cash--they want let her do anything except deposit them--we were planning on using some cash--but now I don't know--With what pleasurable anticipations the coming year can now be faced...have been relegated to some uncertain future date--why ?  because the outside is to pretty to miss--

Politicians putting forth  critical opinions as if they were facts...

A free man finds his rule of conduct in his sense of honor...

Life is a process--science is a process--evolution is a process--folks we evolve-- but do "we"...

Reality does not yield--you don't have to vindicate yourself by condemning others..you are what you are---and it 's been happening a long time--you are made up over time--building blocks--spite, ingratitude, vindictiveness, secret enclaves in ones life-- are---you are not in a vacuum--all is "you"

well all I can say is I'm back not very proud of myself either--backed a young lady into a corner asking about her past life--not really any of my business but still I had to put my foot in and make a big deal out of nothing----was in my own way trying to learn something about her that would be meaningful--to me--my little selfish self--or was some man thing coming out--doubt if was any of that--I've been thinking about for a good while--she even suggested I was not over my wife yet who a while back but well I'm over Trudy as well as I ever going to be--and it's time I move from a stagnant atmosphere to one with a little livelier flavor for lack of a better word

do I have secrets don't we all--those little bitty things that we do when no one is looking or when we feel the time is right--to do what needs to be done--our own personal hygiene--

Something in my chest reversed itself in sympathetic reaction--but I ruthlessly forced it away...
I wasn't sure I regretted that I had pushed my emotion so completely aside and it was that lack of regret, that caused my concern... Perhaps I had something vital, some spark of life and warmth and empathy that had been extinguished by my betrayal of my vows and the subsequent lies... Could a man's heart, his soul, perish and yet leave him walking and talking as if alive....

Talking about myself when there are so many things going on--got up real early this morning--not for any reason but to think and remember that I am still here--

When is the last time you heard any body say anything about Self-Control... or self-restraint for that matter-- can we still locate it in the American Character ( The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing--Edmund Burke )

Mad at everything daughter has been telling one thing and here comes another--yet here I am--can't do a damn thing--old and stupid--and can hardly get around--but so what--if I get around it has to be slow and patient either with a walker or or a cane--and it doesn't seem like it's going to get better just damn worse--lifting weights to try and get some strength back--but it seems to be helping make me feel better but not leaving me much aid--as far as walking again or--gaining the strength to walk by myself without cane or walker...frustrating to say the least--I might as well be doing something in some old folks home--like sitting in a chair or rocking and doing nothing else--but maybe sucking on my thumb--can anything else be done--I don't want to do anything else--but hey seems like I'm going to have to--take back over everything--control which is what I don't want to do--

Got up when I heard everybody else getting up--Kids have to be at bus stop at 6:15 and they are carried down there by my daughter--who is an angle as far as I'm concerned taking them--long way to walk--kids now a days if they had the choice of going to school--and having to walk to the bus would stay home all the time walking is a no-no--as far as they are concerned--can you imagine anyone going to school walking two or three miles like it matter--like Lincoln or some of those other folks who thought education was everything--no way--when I got up I went in to get some coffee--and yes there was some left--so I hadn't gotten up for nothing so I started getting me a cup and thought I might as well add a few other things with Yogurt--toast ham and french bread--with some Harvarti cheese--so I'm sitting in front of the computer stuffing myself--oh yea coffee--coffee is out so I'll probably go back and make some more--wrote son an e-mail--and started thinking about my day--several things are going on --need to get some prescriptions refilled--and check on truck and it's cost--got an appointment to have a scan done on my legs--to find out why circulation is poor--have my own ideas about it but will wait on doctors and doctors input...also a friend is coming over today to look over some items I been wanting to get rid of--old antique stuff..plus bunch of tools--sort of help clem up things around here--notice a weed coming back from last year--that I must do something about or it'll take over...for sure..went and fixed last pot of coffee--not that I plan on dyeing or anything-- last one for this morning-- want fix any more until late this afternoon...

Kids stayed home during their spring break well sort of --one went and stayed with grandmother--and the other decided to stay home--of course I had to spend time off the computer--the one who stayed home plays games on my computer--says she can't play them on the other computer

There is no creation by degrees, only an actualization of what has always been potential...like a link into a positive frame of reference... a thought that seems to realize and create itself only in our mind...

In all its creating, nature favors the simplest, most straight forward methods...

Environments are always relative--never absolute..

I can pen any animal on the face of the earth if I can get him to depend on me for a free handout...

Nothing is more wonderful than waiting for a happiness you can be sure of...

I added some more things to think about--Self control--self restraint--self contentment self containment and respect--a friend told me respect and self control could be considered the same thing--I've been wondering all night about it--I just looked them up and I don't feel like they encompass what I feel like I mean by the words--explanation may take some thought--I'll come back to it--

Reading William Shawcross's book "Deliver Us From Evil" seems to fit right into today's time--one part seems very appropriate about the Clinton's which makes me dislike anything to do with them and I wish someone would ban them from having to  be seen on T.V.--on a trip the Clinton's took to Africa involved fleets of planes and 1300 fellow travelers U.S. Officials and "others" It cost U.S. taxpayers 42.8 million dollars--just this trip alone-- this at a time when he was going to save us money..yea I've heard enough about the Clinton's and I hope she does run and gets stomped...

  There is urgent need for frank intelligent appraisal of factors which others in our day are exploiting.. Some of us have been more than a little surprised at the admissions made recently by certain government politicians...We are not in control...the world wasn't made just for us...and we've paid enough in lives of our young---we don't need others to survive--I'm not saying to be mean--what I'm saying is they need us--for they're survival--we are what they hate--we are who they hate--we are the ones they are teaching their children to hate---just because of the way we are...
  It is obvious to "all" who studies our scene carefully that there are factors working deeper in our minds than just our powers of bombs, death and destruction...We can and do observe humans all over the world exhibiting irrational prejudices, favoring certain things without knowing why, and being instinctively "drawn" to certain folks while reacting from others...What has humanism to say concerning these problems that have grown up through all our humanest ever since we were babes in arms...How can we accept and know we are after the correct evolutionary steps leading us and others in the right direction...how can we control those who are exploiting the situations for their own selfishness.. How can we be sure that this part of our nature shall express itself to the glory of all...
  There is abundant need for a selfless intellectual investigation here...
We know we are not cheap optimists--we know that obstinacy in war can bring very, very severe punishment in its train, and that a man who parts with the integrity of his soul--even though he gains the whole world--is a tragic fool...But war teaches that we are only punished for --and actually punished by our own mistakes; and it teaches that every man or woman, no matter how steeped in death and destruction, has always direct access to an all powerful mind that will straighten him out, and supply from his own inner strength to again find what's needed to go on and find himself again...

Another thing maybe for gun control enthusiasts'--how about a little thought--when you have a gun aren't you more than likely to use it--take for example a scorpion--he doesn't pick and choose who he uses his weapon on--he carries it around on his back--you think if someone comes near his prize possession he want pop you a good one--sort of reminds me of those people over in the East--riding around in their Toyota's with those huge guns sticking out of the back of the pick-up trucks--are you telling me that if they don't like your looks--they want pop you--your last--goodbye  see we're talking about self-control--using what God gave you up there between your ears--I see all these women on T.V. now all those high powered skirts which by thee way are getting to where they aren't skirts anymore--what does one call them--maybe less skirts--anyway they are just men with less skirts on--they've become so aggressive and forceful that they believe they are in control--which they maybe on their shows but wow what a way to go--most women are good as gold--I'm not talking about women of old--ones who faked thinking that men were the end all--I thinking about women who think for themselves and have pride in the way they can look--if you've got it show it--I don't know about that kind of "fe--male" but sometimes hey why not--but how about in the right places--whose to decide I guess you are--and anyway I seem to be getting way out of my range here..but believe me I think women are...the best...and wish they haven't got it their heads that the only way to success was through the paths of man--because in time they will see what man has lost..by being a tough ass...

Again under whatever circumstances it's still war--how about us bombing and let the people who live over there do the ground clearance--see anything wrong with that--how about letting all the war mongers from over here do the aiding and abetting over there--you know like advising...I hate to see us always in the lead--on everything--where the hell is China--or Russia--it seems like France has always got to complain first and bitch but eventually they scramble--and do the good thing...watching news --those guys know when they have a good thing--bleed it to death and then some--don't get me wrong I believe in fighting for what is right--I believe in fighting to save out homeland--and I hate to see any American treated like dirt--but I also feel when you go somewhere you know what you are doing and should be prepared to deal with it..be prepared somewhere that was a motto for some group like hey Boy Scouts--can we keep doing these things when will we give out of money and boys and girls for war--can't you get over extended--look what happened to Rome-- you say that was along time ago--doesn't that still make it a good example..like one of the earliest--Duh

President made a speech today had a whole room full of all kinds of servicemen and he had them laughing and he was joking and telling how good they were and how much the world would respect them when their jobs were done--he had them clapping and ranting and raving about what a good guy they were listening too--the only thing he lacked were the Dallas Cheerleaders..or a bunch of college girls swinging down on a pole half naked...probably would have caused

What are we doing out of our own country--we are disliked--not trusted--and people actually hate us-but does that stop us from interfering getting involved in "their" affairs --it's like getting involved with your next door neighbors sticking your nose in where it's not wanted--hey we are not the world police--the only way that could happen is if---and a mighty if it is--when there are no borders any where--where the world takes on all responsibilities and every country pays it 's dues to be involved...one of these days it will happen it has to --cause all things will eventually effect every body else...over 200,000 people from the Ebola nations have passports and can enter the U.S. frightening maybe so--but now we're sending 3000 troops in harms way--I don't know about you folks but all I know is we're in for a hurting--and everyone involved should have had some say so in the matter--before one man took it out of our hands---my feelings on the matter...self-control--has an awful way of creeping in on your self if you aren't paying attention...and realizing what effects you are going to have to pay for---there's a lot of folks in the U.S.of A and I'm beginning to realize out side of us--there's not to much affection in my heart outside the U.S. period--not from all I've seen and heard of the way they feel about us...I think whatever we've done and whatever we're planning on doing has got to be stopped--and reevaluated to the degree we take care of what our problems are now--get our feet back on the ground where we can see a little clearer and act in a normal, natural way--where we have more co-operation and not always try being the leader into where we are not wanted...

My God I heard on T.V. the other day someone yelling no more war...who can stand up to that--it was like I thought I heard but I didn't it for sure--I was channelling surfing and I had to stop wait on the damn T.V. to catch up or what ever it has to do--and couldn't find it--again -- what a concept especially to the never ending idiots--who base everything on force and violence...but beyond that I was shocked...after the politicians get the baby boomers and Vietnam folks gone --there's no telling what they'll be able to do---raise more hell all over the world--the leaders of death and destruction--at it again..yahoo

We keep everything in front of us--by showing it over and over on T.V. and the internet--sometimes
I get so tired of seeing the same pictures--and hearing the same old things--why do they show it over and over --I guess the shock value--kids in school shooting--others--Ebola another dis-ease plastered all over the news--and how it should never have entered our country and how it did--people starting to shoot policemen and army personnel, and every problem that exists has to be blown up, and shown any number of times--until something else comes along that can take it's place and then for days and days is played over and over and talked to death--every thing becomes an event--it's like waking up to the morning horror show--what gruesome event is out there next--I getting where I care to leave the house more and more--I even starting to look at guns--wondering if I should invest the time and effort to buy and learn--how to operate lone--but they you have to get in the spirit of the thing--isn't there any other way around it--lie maybe every body else start thinking in different terms--maybe thinking in purer terms of kindness and lets end the horrible days--

I 've been bored lately looking for something to distract my brain--pull it out of where it seems to be stuck--can't get myself in gear--to try and get anything started makes me wonder why I want to do anything--like I'm no self-starter--just one to hang around on the outside waiting for someone to need help--and I just follow around--like some friendly puppy--

it's saturday and I'm blogging well that ought to tell you something--T. V. has gone bust--and the base ball season has no promise in it for the Braves who are struggling from the bottom up and the signs of going anywhere in an upward motion--is them just getting up to bat so they can sit down again...the batters even tho it's preseason--are still swinging at the first pitch- no discipline at all