Friday, November 7, 2014

Secrets



But a virtue in excess may slither into a weakness...

We are the universal provider...

Indigestion is a great begetter of cynicism...

No woman worth marrying is nothing but a wife...

Lies keep the teeth white...an old gypsy saying

The Rich are always envied...

When wine is in--wit is out...

Forgetfulness always leaves a trail of consequences...

Real religion is evolutionary and revolutionary...

Does speech convey intensity of anguish...

If the objective of conscious universal intelligence is to enjoy it's life--one of our important...jobs would be to improve the quality of our individual life-We can do this by making life more enjoyable , both for ourselves and those about us...this is a process of intelligent growth... -Life's essence

"Living Energy" is not limited...

Affirmative thought has never been put back on the tracks...

A principle is simply a basic rule of law...

Everything has been absolute--

We have our own media " Physical Senses "

Life is a process within an evolutionary process formulating life's essence--Correct--Just checking...

Great connoisseurs and great collectors are not alway nice people...

In short, it was the easiest way out...

A bad reputation without money to sweeten it; is a heavy burden

As you grow old, religion becomes a lonely business...

''Money illiteracy" is as restrictive as any other illiteracy...

Emotions are not principles...

You have abilities, but you have not refined it to the full extent of your capabilities...



Trying to bring order back out of chaos seems to meet like that's what we're always doing--like going back as swards out of just about everything we do--always trying for just a little more--in exchange for what-- only-- God knows ?? one man controlling the whole U.S.of A.--or the world wouldn't make that much difference--always speaking from a distance place--live from....Sammy and Owen must have gone back to bed they haven't bothered me about letting them out--so everything changes--evolves--ever-changing--systems, to the ones now in use--all I can see--cutting down on who can come into the country--not for anything but slowing down growth--and taking care of where we are--and what we've got--taking all do consideration--into where our future is going and are we going in that direction--if not getting on track the fastest way we can before we do any more stupid things--that'll make us regret that we didn't take care of this business earlier..when things start getting out of hand--we usually look who's to blame and by the time we get back to the problem in the first place--it almost doesn't matter anymore--whoever was involved in it better not do that anymore--call it a slap on the wrist--or money under the table--boy has the wind picked up--a big gust long one at that--came down from up the valley--trees bent further than I've seen in a while--just had a call from my daughter--she's at the bank--where she has some check's I asked her to cash--they want let her do anything except deposit them--we were planning on using some cash--but now I don't know--With what pleasurable anticipations the coming year can now be faced...have been relegated to some uncertain future date--why ?  because the outside is to pretty to miss--

Politicians putting forth  critical opinions as if they were facts...

A free man finds his rule of conduct in his sense of honor...

Life is a process--science is a process--evolution is a process--folks we evolve-- but do "we"...

Reality does not yield--you don't have to vindicate yourself by condemning others..you are what you are---and it 's been happening a long time--you are made up over time--building blocks--spite, ingratitude, vindictiveness, secret enclaves in ones life-- are---you are not in a vacuum--all is "you"

well all I can say is I'm back not very proud of myself either--backed a young lady into a corner asking about her past life--not really any of my business but still I had to put my foot in and make a big deal out of nothing----was in my own way trying to learn something about her that would be meaningful--to me--my little selfish self--or was some man thing coming out--doubt if was any of that--I've been thinking about for a good while--she even suggested I was not over my wife yet who a while back but well I'm over Trudy as well as I ever going to be--and it's time I move from a stagnant atmosphere to one with a little livelier flavor for lack of a better word

do I have secrets don't we all--those little bitty things that we do when no one is looking or when we feel the time is right--to do what needs to be done--our own personal hygiene--

Something in my chest reversed itself in sympathetic reaction--but I ruthlessly forced it away...
I wasn't sure I regretted that I had pushed my emotion so completely aside and it was that lack of regret, that caused my concern... Perhaps I had something vital, some spark of life and warmth and empathy that had been extinguished by my betrayal of my vows and the subsequent lies... Could a man's heart, his soul, perish and yet leave him walking and talking as if alive....

Talking about myself when there are so many things going on--got up real early this morning--not for any reason but to think and remember that I am still here--


Sunday, November 2, 2014

When is the last time you heard any body say anything about Self-Control... or self-restraint for that matter-- can we still locate it in the American Character ( The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing--Edmund Burke )



Mad at everything daughter has been telling one thing and here comes another--yet here I am--can't do a damn thing--old and stupid--and can hardly get around--but so what--if I get around it has to be slow and patient either with a walker or or a cane--and it doesn't seem like it's going to get better just damn worse--lifting weights to try and get some strength back--but it seems to be helping make me feel better but not leaving me much aid--as far as walking again or--gaining the strength to walk by myself without cane or walker...frustrating to say the least--I might as well be doing something in some old folks home--like sitting in a chair or rocking and doing nothing else--but maybe sucking on my thumb--can anything else be done--I don't want to do anything else--but hey seems like I'm going to have to--take back over everything--control which is what I don't want to do--

Got up when I heard everybody else getting up--Kids have to be at bus stop at 6:15 and they are carried down there by my daughter--who is an angle as far as I'm concerned taking them--long way to walk--kids now a days if they had the choice of going to school--and having to walk to the bus would stay home all the time walking is a no-no--as far as they are concerned--can you imagine anyone going to school walking two or three miles like it matter--like Lincoln or some of those other folks who thought education was everything--no way--when I got up I went in to get some coffee--and yes there was some left--so I hadn't gotten up for nothing so I started getting me a cup and thought I might as well add a few other things with Yogurt--toast ham and french bread--with some Harvarti cheese--so I'm sitting in front of the computer stuffing myself--oh yea coffee--coffee is out so I'll probably go back and make some more--wrote son an e-mail--and started thinking about my day--several things are going on --need to get some prescriptions refilled--and check on truck and it's cost--got an appointment to have a scan done on my legs--to find out why circulation is poor--have my own ideas about it but will wait on doctors and doctors input...also a friend is coming over today to look over some items I been wanting to get rid of--old antique stuff..plus bunch of tools--sort of help clem up things around here--notice a weed coming back from last year--that I must do something about or it'll take over...for sure..went and fixed last pot of coffee--not that I plan on dyeing or anything-- last one for this morning-- want fix any more until late this afternoon...

Kids stayed home during their spring break well sort of --one went and stayed with grandmother--and the other decided to stay home--of course I had to spend time off the computer--the one who stayed home plays games on my computer--says she can't play them on the other computer

There is no creation by degrees, only an actualization of what has always been potential...like a link into a positive frame of reference... a thought that seems to realize and create itself only in our mind...

In all its creating, nature favors the simplest, most straight forward methods...

Environments are always relative--never absolute..

I can pen any animal on the face of the earth if I can get him to depend on me for a free handout...

Nothing is more wonderful than waiting for a happiness you can be sure of...

I added some more things to think about--Self control--self restraint--self contentment self containment and respect--a friend told me respect and self control could be considered the same thing--I've been wondering all night about it--I just looked them up and I don't feel like they encompass what I feel like I mean by the words--explanation may take some thought--I'll come back to it--

Reading William Shawcross's book "Deliver Us From Evil" seems to fit right into today's time--one part seems very appropriate about the Clinton's which makes me dislike anything to do with them and I wish someone would ban them from having to  be seen on T.V.--on a trip the Clinton's took to Africa involved fleets of planes and 1300 fellow travelers U.S. Officials and "others" It cost U.S. taxpayers 42.8 million dollars--just this trip alone-- this at a time when he was going to save us money..yea I've heard enough about the Clinton's and I hope she does run and gets stomped...

  There is urgent need for frank intelligent appraisal of factors which others in our day are exploiting.. Some of us have been more than a little surprised at the admissions made recently by certain government politicians...We are not in control...the world wasn't made just for us...and we've paid enough in lives of our young---we don't need others to survive--I'm not saying to be mean--what I'm saying is they need us--for they're survival--we are what they hate--we are who they hate--we are the ones they are teaching their children to hate---just because of the way we are...
  It is obvious to "all" who studies our scene carefully that there are factors working deeper in our minds than just our powers of bombs, death and destruction...We can and do observe humans all over the world exhibiting irrational prejudices, favoring certain things without knowing why, and being instinctively "drawn" to certain folks while reacting from others...What has humanism to say concerning these problems that have grown up through all our humanest ever since we were babes in arms...How can we accept and know we are after the correct evolutionary steps leading us and others in the right direction...how can we control those who are exploiting the situations for their own selfishness.. How can we be sure that this part of our nature shall express itself to the glory of all...
  There is abundant need for a selfless intellectual investigation here...
We know we are not cheap optimists--we know that obstinacy in war can bring very, very severe punishment in its train, and that a man who parts with the integrity of his soul--even though he gains the whole world--is a tragic fool...But war teaches that we are only punished for --and actually punished by our own mistakes; and it teaches that every man or woman, no matter how steeped in death and destruction, has always direct access to an all powerful mind that will straighten him out, and supply from his own inner strength to again find what's needed to go on and find himself again...

Another thing maybe for gun control enthusiasts'--how about a little thought--when you have a gun aren't you more than likely to use it--take for example a scorpion--he doesn't pick and choose who he uses his weapon on--he carries it around on his back--you think if someone comes near his prize possession he want pop you a good one--sort of reminds me of those people over in the East--riding around in their Toyota's with those huge guns sticking out of the back of the pick-up trucks--are you telling me that if they don't like your looks--they want pop you--your last--goodbye  see we're talking about self-control--using what God gave you up there between your ears--I see all these women on T.V. now all those high powered skirts which by thee way are getting to where they aren't skirts anymore--what does one call them--maybe less skirts--anyway they are just men with less skirts on--they've become so aggressive and forceful that they believe they are in control--which they maybe on their shows but wow what a way to go--most women are good as gold--I'm not talking about women of old--ones who faked thinking that men were the end all--I thinking about women who think for themselves and have pride in the way they can look--if you've got it show it--I don't know about that kind of "fe--male" but sometimes hey why not--but how about in the right places--whose to decide I guess you are--and anyway I seem to be getting way out of my range here..but believe me I think women are...the best...and wish they haven't got it their heads that the only way to success was through the paths of man--because in time they will see what man has lost..by being a tough ass...

Again under whatever circumstances it's still war--how about us bombing and let the people who live over there do the ground clearance--see anything wrong with that--how about letting all the war mongers from over here do the aiding and abetting over there--you know like advising...I hate to see us always in the lead--on everything--where the hell is China--or Russia--it seems like France has always got to complain first and bitch but eventually they scramble--and do the good thing...watching news --those guys know when they have a good thing--bleed it to death and then some--don't get me wrong I believe in fighting for what is right--I believe in fighting to save out homeland--and I hate to see any American treated like dirt--but I also feel when you go somewhere you know what you are doing and should be prepared to deal with it..be prepared somewhere that was a motto for some group like hey Boy Scouts--can we keep doing these things when will we give out of money and boys and girls for war--can't you get over extended--look what happened to Rome-- you say that was along time ago--doesn't that still make it a good example..like one of the earliest--Duh

President made a speech today had a whole room full of all kinds of servicemen and he had them laughing and he was joking and telling how good they were and how much the world would respect them when their jobs were done--he had them clapping and ranting and raving about what a good guy they were listening too--the only thing he lacked were the Dallas Cheerleaders..or a bunch of college girls swinging down on a pole half naked...probably would have caused

What are we doing out of our own country--we are disliked--not trusted--and people actually hate us-but does that stop us from interfering getting involved in "their" affairs --it's like getting involved with your next door neighbors sticking your nose in where it's not wanted--hey we are not the world police--the only way that could happen is if---and a mighty if it is--when there are no borders any where--where the world takes on all responsibilities and every country pays it 's dues to be involved...one of these days it will happen it has to --cause all things will eventually effect every body else...over 200,000 people from the Ebola nations have passports and can enter the U.S. frightening maybe so--but now we're sending 3000 troops in harms way--I don't know about you folks but all I know is we're in for a hurting--and everyone involved should have had some say so in the matter--before one man took it out of our hands---my feelings on the matter...self-control--has an awful way of creeping in on your self if you aren't paying attention...and realizing what effects you are going to have to pay for---there's a lot of folks in the U.S.of A and I'm beginning to realize out side of us--there's not to much affection in my heart outside the U.S. period--not from all I've seen and heard of the way they feel about us...I think whatever we've done and whatever we're planning on doing has got to be stopped--and reevaluated to the degree we take care of what our problems are now--get our feet back on the ground where we can see a little clearer and act in a normal, natural way--where we have more co-operation and not always try being the leader into where we are not wanted...

My God I heard on T.V. the other day someone yelling no more war...who can stand up to that--it was like I thought I heard but I didn't it for sure--I was channelling surfing and I had to stop wait on the damn T.V. to catch up or what ever it has to do--and couldn't find it--again -- what a concept especially to the never ending idiots--who base everything on force and violence...but beyond that I was shocked...after the politicians get the baby boomers and Vietnam folks gone --there's no telling what they'll be able to do---raise more hell all over the world--the leaders of death and destruction--at it again..yahoo

We keep everything in front of us--by showing it over and over on T.V. and the internet--sometimes
I get so tired of seeing the same pictures--and hearing the same old things--why do they show it over and over --I guess the shock value--kids in school shooting--others--Ebola another dis-ease plastered all over the news--and how it should never have entered our country and how it did--people starting to shoot policemen and army personnel, and every problem that exists has to be blown up, and shown any number of times--until something else comes along that can take it's place and then for days and days is played over and over and talked to death--every thing becomes an event--it's like waking up to the morning horror show--what gruesome event is out there next--I getting where I care to leave the house more and more--I even starting to look at guns--wondering if I should invest the time and effort to buy and learn--how to operate lone--but they you have to get in the spirit of the thing--isn't there any other way around it--lie maybe every body else start thinking in different terms--maybe thinking in purer terms of kindness and lets end the horrible days--

I 've been bored lately looking for something to distract my brain--pull it out of where it seems to be stuck--can't get myself in gear--to try and get anything started makes me wonder why I want to do anything--like I'm no self-starter--just one to hang around on the outside waiting for someone to need help--and I just follow around--like some friendly puppy--

it's saturday and I'm blogging well that ought to tell you something--T. V. has gone bust--and the base ball season has no promise in it for the Braves who are struggling from the bottom up and the signs of going anywhere in an upward motion--is them just getting up to bat so they can sit down again...the batters even tho it's preseason--are still swinging at the first pitch- no discipline at all

Monday, October 27, 2014

November--Crowded Mountain Highways, Curvy Roads,and beautiful Scenery

During the start of this year--I've been into coffee quite a bit--you know like drinking to much--after a certain time of day --I can be up for ever it seems like so I started checking on the coffee--you know like studying what and when it took hold of me and for how long--here's what I determined--after three o'clock I can't drink coffee--unless I 'm going for at least six more hours--(minimum) it stays in there doing whatever it has to do to keep me up...and the quantity doesn't seem to matter--I could have one cup or two but remember six hours--unless you are beat--if my heart races--I usually take a baby aspirin--to come the ruffled waters--the only thing that seems to matter is what my next day looks like--if I going to have a busy day it's going to be rough because I was up all night--but if you can get into all nighters hey there ain't no better time--you're all alone--unless other night owls are around--12 and 12--light and dark--and all the in-betweens..

November 17--2014--Monday wow those kind of rainy days--with enough chill on the air--to make you want to stay inside warm--I'm looking outside the window now at gray, wet, leaves and bark--my fingers are cold just from standing in front of the window-- looking outside-- I've got the temperature on the house thermostat set at 65 degrees--not cold not hot--sweater weather--in side--my mind has been going a mile a minute--you just turn on T V. once and away goes your mind on all kinds of crap--and what crap covers --is everything that is going on the world --over--almost sounds like a story about the start of doomsday...every where it's not  " Prairie Home Companion "it's every detail on murder--killings--war--shooting down planes--sickness--"epidemic" type--I'm telling myself on Sunday night when I turn on the T.V. and their showing the "Walking dead"--and this is the world we're living in--it's all coming true before your very eyes--escaping is the only thing on my mind--getting this stuff as far away from --me --as possible--I am not talking about leaving--I talking clearing the air--saying no more--I have no idea were anything is going except it's definitely going without me--seeing what I'm seeing--watching it's like when I was young--Vietnam--my friends--while you were in Vietnam and I was at home I saw every gory detail on the tube--I was fighting to get every last person out of there--all that promise going to waste--if you complain about the army here --you're almost an outcast from the start--they're doing something I can't even imagine-- when I try to imagine it goes to places and things--that absolutely blow my mind--I'm more of a stay home type of guy--getting out away from somewhere dear--I have a tendency to feel insecure--out of place-not exactly lost--but close enough--to make "nothing" as important as it should be--there's some thin places in the clouds--the skies still light grayish--almost white in places--where the sunlight is trying to get through--the dogs all wanted out earlier--trying to open the door with all of them trying to get out all at once--they rushed around the fence--then headed off into the woods raising hell barking and seeing who could get their the quickest--bumping and knocking--not even knowing some of them not even knowing what the heck was going on--following just to be a part of what was going on--the ground outside is awfully wet looking--leaves packed down--droplets of water sparkling  here and there--where light and my eye meet--some water still dropping off the leaves on the camellias--a good amount of leaves have fallen as I look up at the sky I can see so much better a farther distance--because more of the leaves have fallen to earth--the sun's now shining--off some of the leaves--a glare--the U.P.S. man drove up the drive--dogs barking I'd better go see what it's all about--nuts--is what it was all about--I ordered some pecans from a grower--in Albany, Georgia--they were being sent here--two dogs --I have to let in when anyone drives up--they don't know how to act around cars-I worry that through their own stupidity--they might get hurt--again I'm hung up in what might happen--or might not happen--supersensitive to any slight or neglect--reverence not exactly that--but due respect for getting to where our paths separate-- go out in the world and get their " whatever " for themselves--

November 13--2014--Can't get any prettier than this beautiful day in Mr. Rogers neighborhood--looking out the window and not a leaf stirring--dogs walking up and down driveway--Macy doesn't even want to go outside--just finished up sausage, grits and toast laved with Blackberry preserves--and still sipping my coffee--last night had a bad case of indigestion---but this morning just feel a tinge of it--so I decided I wouldn't eat but after a little thinking about food decided differently--maybe a big mistake--but will find out soon enough--I ordered some new coffee's from my coffee supplier--but didn't realize Veterans day was going to be in this week--and I'm afraid the coffee has been held up because of no mail delivery on Tuesday--

Trying to get into Thanksgiving--Thought about getting some corn on the cob and hanging it from the fireplace corners against my cedar mantel--Apples and raisins and nuts brim the bowls on the center isle in the kitchen near the good smelling kitchen, and the cheese board will be decked out with a pale  swiss, bright cheddar and creamy Port Salut--dreaming can't-- hurt can it---why is it that I like Ham better than turkey--I always had turkey when I was young--and now that I have my choice I pick ham--I remember when young the turkey roasting, the savory smell of sage and chestnuts drifting out of the kitchen and onions glazing in honey and catsup adding it's fragrance...a family holiday--when you get to see the changes years are making on the ones you love...As we pass the plates heaped with ham----the conversation brings all the good that's gone by--montage of their lives...  
 

The sky today is pewter--Gentian is covering the banks down on the sides of the creek (Greg says even brought me one to see) the dogs are going in and out of the house--weather permitting--I leave them to themselves--even they come in wet--I use a towel and dry them as best I can--they only stay minute and go find their favorite spot to lie down and get warm--on terrible days take a rest--I usually bread a boo the first time throughly and have no need to read it again unless of course--it has many words of wisdom--and then I put it in the reference section of my library--and will go back to the selections many times--otherwise it goes on some shelve somewhere in the neither regions of books to be given away or to go the library sales...

I get this urge this time of year--like to clean house--wash windows--straighten out things get them ready winter's coming--I guess it could be called fall cleaning--I move books around put them in boxes--and piles--on table tops--boxes on top of boxes--floor space is at a premium but still I pile--Every book meant something at one time or another and it's closeness meant exactly that--so I could get my hands on it quickly--even after I fill all the boxes to rid myself of dozens and dozen of over stuffed books shelves--they'rw still loaded--I can go in a closet take things out in boxes and after I finish the boxes are full and the closet is still not sufficiently taken care of--it still has that freezing of being overfull--in books it's always that it was selected for a reason--and that reason--may still be in the book somewhere that i might forget if the book were given away--so I keep them with the thought when I get enough time where I can re-read these books I'll get what I wanted out of them--it seems like that time has come--cause I'm arranging all the books I have left--in close proximity to where I sit next to the computer--hopefully--sifting--that what I do when I read --it takes time and thought--the ones I keep--are like charms I file away to keep for rainy days when I know I'm going to be alone...also I'm in need of some lavender--I going to keep it around from now on--every where--especially for sheets in my room--for some reason that seems real important now--just such as this makes me wonder where my brain goes--and why--
               ,.
  Nothing has change only more grumbling about our deer dark colored President--boy I bet he has some wishes--and some people he'd like to get rid of--I've quite watching the news--got to down in the dumps--the last thing I watched was the ending of the World Series--where the Giants finally came through--can't believe they didn't use Linceum or however one spells his name--the games were slow until one or the other of the teams exploded--with a lot of runs--well that's my T.V. for the rest of the year--I hope except some good old Georgia Football--boy re the woods full of it right now color--to beat the band--cooler also--haven't had any frost yet--but don't mind the heat just came on I can hear it rumbling in the basement--and feel some of the air being blown on the back of my neck--as I'm sitting under one of the heating vents--the sun is just coming through the trees--right now it's behind one of the larger hemlocks my feet are damp from an early morning stroll to the edge of the woods and I'm a little wee bit tired from the excursion--or I guess say my exercise--still thinking about days ahead when it gets cold and all I can do is sit in front of the fireplace and drink coffee and nibble on some fresh homemade cookies--

I've just finished this book by Rutherford Platt--the Flowering World--and after reading him I had to go and look for all the lichen I could find--Having just gained a new immense respect for this humble growth--and now with the leaves and growth of the year dwindling--the light grays and and whites and glowing muted tones stand out even more--because of my new found appreciation...plus they endure varied fluctuations in temperature--they cling to wooden posts--bark, stone,boulders, buildings, only cities and the harsh, impure air causes it any trouble...their growth is slow--patience--

I've just been outside walking around the yard--I didn't even know it was raining--I was so engrossed in my thoughts that when outside I was taking deep breaths--and smelling the spicy scents given off by the wet grass and the sole outside..Most people from the cities don't have this luck--this goes in-noticed--because the concrete and the hurriedness of their lives--I know the smell of wet concrete--and it's not the same except--it does convey it's on messages--When I sit at my desk for long periods--occasionally I find that I'm out doors--and I'm never quite sure how I got there--noticing the trees, and seeing what I all I can notice--leaves falling opening vistas I haven't seen since last fall--I find a completely new environment--one so dependent needing daily inspections--or I loose my perspective of approaching autumn--and I know I've burned my toast--let my coffee get cold--and my cereal has become soggy--even time has elapsed so far I'm already late for some sort of something or other--I've become sort a unreliable fellow--except to my dogs and cats who follow me around and completely understand---


Place is packed roads are far as the eye can see--people come up from the cities and form long lines all over the mountains...but while the orals are being jammed packed creatures all over the mountains are starting to think about their winter abodes and all the food they've been storing for the winter cold...the frog pass his winter in "suspended animation"--outside my window all the birds have left my little home--chickadees , juncos, goldfinches,tree sparrows, blue jays,Downy woodpeckers, nuthatches, purple finches even a few hawks and owls are still out there hovering doing there thing--put on a heavy jacket and investigate...discovering is where it's at...don't forget the bird feed when you're next at Wal-Mart,Kroger,or Home Deposit (yes I said that)the tiny ones will appreciate it--letting them also know that you appreciated their help this past summer...

the Bee-- the hornet--the yellow jacket--Often when a bee stings,it leaves its entire stinger within the victim--the stinger has it's barbs--the needle of the stinger has tiny serrate edges with teeth pointing backward, so the barb can easily enter, and will not be easily pulled out...the glands of the bee are thought to produce venomous proteins...it is an irritating product--along with this poison gland and part of the bees intestines--this is fatal to the bee-- don't try to squeeze it out--because pushing and pressing gives a further dose of sting venom and a larger more painful swelling--the bee stinger should be scraped out not pulled out by the two fingers...Hornets and Yellow Jackets have beautiful sharp smooth stingers,sharper under the micro scope than any sewing needle or hypodermic needle---it does not stick in the skin--it does not tear out their intestines--so they can sting many times--

Among the butterflies and moths the sense of smellis of great importance in finding--sexual partners...An entomologist captured a number of of the males and females of the moths which develop from the tan and black little bugger that crawls over the highway called "woolly bear" caterpillars. The females were placed in a cage, while the males were painted with numbers on their wings...the males were taken various distances away from the cage and released... Males who were released at a distance of nine miles downwind from the cage were able to detect the odor of the females in the cage and return to the cage with hardly any trouble..and you think we're ever going to win against creatures who can do this...smells and the moon--how do you feel on the night of the full moon--

It is probable that odors of flowers are more important than colors bin attracting insects, for many insects seem to have rather imperfect vision and rather sensitive sense of smell...Flowers pollinated by bees and butterflies, which are active during the day, are usually more fragrant during the day than they are at night, whereas flowers pollinated by moths, which are nocturnal in their habits , are ordinarily more fragrant at night...Flowers pollinated by moths are open at night and are commonly white...

A point where nature and it's togetherness mean a lot--where we as individuals never think about--everything co-exists --one thing needs another--you can't kill something without it affecting something else--The striking fetters of the Yucca and Yucca-moth relationship are these: that Yucca
flowers can be pollinated in nature only by Yucca moths, that the large of the moths can derive nourishment from Yucca ovules and from no othe kind of food,and that both Yuccas and Yucca moth
can complete their life cycles only with the aid of each other...This is one of the most amazing cases known of absolute interdependence of a plant and animal for the completion of their life histories....every little piece of nature has it's reasons--don't think in any terms other than it's here for a reason...simple killing or doing away with something--is not the answer--something else will replace it--what will be uncovered could be worse and for it's protection--you may not like what is turned out...

Toad--Stomach  exam--toads feed at night--they sleep and digest during the day--
22 large Carpenter Ants, 2 large-sized moth larve, 2 sow bugs, 5 weevils, 1 flower beetle, 1 cricket, 10 red ants, 5 grasshoppers, (is there any economic importance here) think every night--only one toad-how many there are--and how helpful they are--

What a beautiful day mild with they sun creeping through the trees; a day of golden warmth with all the sweet, faint melancholy of indian summer at it's finest..two or three Camellias in bloom in the shrub garden, and and in the olds witch hazel in fine form, its branches covered in honey colored blossoms...birds fluttering all over the place--the sweet gums now starting to head for their very best in crimson, purple, and gold...Although the strong vigorous colors of November are coming..there is a remnant of beauty just around the corner, the juncos, chickadees, and nuthatches are feeding voraciously on the expensive sunflower seedsI put out at the feeders--I use to spread it on the ground but we've acquired a cat so I have to use the feeders for their protection--even though--we rarely let the cat out of the house...My house plants we set out side the back door--are loving these cool night and the rains--right noes they seem at their best as far as looks are concerned--sometime soon I am going to have to bring in my house plants that have been enjoying their summer vacation--the cool days have given them new life--and are looking exceptional
                                          Arctia caja --(Wooly Bear moth)
Before bringing in my house plants--I add a pinch of mustard (a half a teaspoonful to a quart of water) added to the water in watering house plants will destroy insects of many kinds and will not harm even the most tender of plants

Lime water poured on the soil will usually kill worms..A teaspoon of perfectly fresh lime should be put into a cup of water and left to stand until the sediment settles at the bottom..The hole for draining should be closed before the application is made on a house plant, that the water may remain in the surface soil long enough to do its work...

The day has turned off like one in a dream--the sky is blue as can be and the temperature has changed much-- just a long sleeve shirt day no clouds--China Blue sky--I'd call it--I started to take a walk outside the back door but happen to look up at the sky and noticed some orange fruits clinging on the old persimmon tree all the branches are bare of leaves but thick with their fruits maybe like 40 to 60
 fruits--and yet a few leaves are left--I see them near the top

Large number of Bluebirds are going wild over the Poison Ivy berries..
Winter wrens are getting where they are demanding a little more food--
Pond is over flowing and clear as a bell--can se the bottom where all the fish are enjoying a little          
  warmth--sun reaching all the way to bottom
Witch Hazel in bloom, the latest of the shrubs
On warm days spiders are ballooning  by large numbers, spinning out silk until it carries them off through the air--
Ran into another copperhead in my woodshed preparing for his winter bed--
Found a a big Blue Heron down standing at the edge of my pond--
Still a few asters blooming along roadside--
Been looking for mushrooms after each rain
Trees just starting their burst of color--
Hickories at the their brightest gold-- dogwoods shading into their purple color--
Gentians at their best--along the streams edge
A few wasps have tried to come into the house to hibernate
Haven't really had any frost yet --but getting close will try and get plants in this Friday
Saw some old Ageratum plants along the highway--I'd like to go back and dig up


I forget from year to year how emotional I can become with fall colors --the memories of past years--when it was a big family thing to go to the mountains and see the foliage --the leaves falling and the thoughts called back in time when we used to make great big piles and burrow down in them and watch hidden underneath--watching as others went up and down the lane--then later closer to night we'd burn the piles and what a fragrance--nothing better--can I hold off one more night and not bring my house plants in--do I wait or get up and go do the right thing--for the plants that is--





Saturday, October 25, 2014

Monthlies--periods in one's life--moments--to be considered--ways toward--comfort-- to slowing the process--of fastness

What is going on here--I can't seem to be doing anything I like--started back to exercising chinning bar--weight machine by Joe Weider--some of the things I'm doing really make me ache in the mornings--but others give me the tight feeling that I use to get when I new i was doing the right thing--after waking up I and walking around I start feeling like I'm loosening ups and my muscles stop being tight--also when I watch T.V. during March madness I lift hand weights--not letting myself get bcd into Slovenes--food is a problem what I need to do is figure some energy giving food source--to help along with my weight lifting and exercise--I'm looking forward to getting away from my walker--and my cane if possible--hopefully the walker can go the cane doesn't bother me as much--so of nice carrying a weapon around--may change cane for something a little more for protection--especially if I have to go somewhere--like Atlanta--I do feel like I'm getting some strength back in arms-- but I have been using them a lot more lately in the lifting and arm pulls--we'll see looking forward to see what I can go back to doing after I've worked out  a while...will keep informed.... 

The lowest thing on earth is a man with nothing to do.. 

Nature shows no partiality...

What allows mules to be obstinate is their blinders..

Understanding is the beginning of approving...

Personality asserts itself by its limitations

Physical Pleasure is such a convincing illusion, and sex, the ultimate charade of safety...

Got any idea what the hell this is and why it's in my neighborhood--I like nature but when it starts looking like it's going to out grow me  I wonder--a friend found this in their house just before going to work --I think he said he went back to bed---have no idea and I go around my house bare footed all the time --I mean I use to--I keep a clean house now even looking in those dark corners...




Temperature of the body (37 degrees C)


Water in our body makes enzyme action possible...

Self-preservation is the first law of nature...

The essence of life is activity...

What an individual does on any given day depends upon what it did do on the day before...continuing--in fact a growing individual should be in constant functional relationship with it's limited environment...

The will to refrain is taught first; the will to act comes later...both are true habits and should be taught only by training---?

Too much deliberation leads to a vacillating attitude...
Aboulia--a condition where a person is unable to reach any decision at all...

He who is trained to control his actions by steady purpose and grit is best able to cultivate useful habits --- "and to break bad habits"... 

A evening at home--
"How calm and quiet a delight
       Is it, alone,
 To read and meditate and write,
       By none offended, and offending none!
 To walk, ride , sit or sleep at one's own ease
       And, pleasing a man's self, none other to displease." Charles Cotton, a friend of Izaak Walton
This morning started setting mouse traps hasn't got above 82 yet and it's in the afternoon, Come September the mice like everything else starts looking for that warm spot --they can occupy all winter long every year i catch about 12 to fifteen of them before winter eta in--I always get down and out when I have to catch them with there white bellies and then I feel a little better cause I catch them before they start having the little ones--my wife use to suggest catching them and then when I got busy working outside the house for folks in town --I noticed my traps were disappearing--and then when i had to buy more--I started sneaking around watching what happened to the traps the garbage can was the only stop I needed she really didn't like the idea of have to pull that little spring up to dump the mouse so she just threw the hole trap away--in other words one trap per mouse--not that I'm a cheap scape but I think she thought I was when i started bitching so from then on I got up early and made sure the traps were emptied..

Good month to go "cocooning"--this kind of "Hunting" will help your powers of observation and will add to your pleasure of counting on next spring...each leaf that on bushes and shrubs might look  like a dead leaf hanging or curled un-naturally--investigate it--bring the cocoons home place in a box look them up and try to identify--then next March or April go back and start observing--also look for the "Fringed Gentian" along creek banks or low moist areas--Bryant---
         
       
"Thou waitest late, and com'st alone
          When woods are bare and birds have flown,
           And frost and shortening days portend
           The aged year is near his end.
           Then doth thy sweet and quiet eye
            Look through its fringes to the sky,
            Blue--Blue--as if that sky let fall
            A flower from its cerulean wall."
  
Before the settling down colors (neutral tints--of gray and brown) of winter arrive nature screams one last time--the hints of autumn's grandeur---each walk you take no matter where you live will show you particular things for your area--not just nature will stand out--neighbors--also---go out expecting to see--you may not see what you expect but your eyes will begin to focus---and you'll probably see something worthwhile---"nature's companionship" will unfold
September is Nature's resting period...leaves in a few places-begin to change--depending on how dry the former months were...the leaves dying are the forerunner of the gorgeous tapestry that will spread through the woods next month or the next--as the withdrawal of the remarkable substance "cambium" is removed from the leaves before they fall...
All nature's creatures are looking for a place bed down for the winter months--can't say I seen any signs that say winter is going to be horrible or not--But have killed two copperheads and a Timber rattler heading into my wood shed for a nice cozy comfortable place to lay their weary heads--had a little helping from Maisie my snake seeker--she alerted me to their were a bouts before they got to comfortable writing spiders are all around the place--got some photo's of some really nice webs--checking on my kindling, getting ready for my first fire, and cold weather all my wood had been turning this really nice gray color--on the ends--got some really nice old oak,Hickory, and mt. maple, got some nice papers from library, and some old boxes I've been cutting up to get kindling started...got some old bark I use sometimes when low on other stuff, got popped the other day by a wasp--well actually several and at this time of year they can really get you good...don't really like that but it seems their stinger has a lot more pop to it near the end of the year, don't know if that has any scientific backing but wow..it smarted--got'em though--and was glad I did--he was persistent..hanging on to the last minute..put some toothpaste on it--helped--got a spider out side the bathroom window been at his web for the past two days gotten really elaborate..taking his time--are there any pass words to serenity...how do a some people take care of their burdens..is there a secret...one is seldom able to speak telling words to their children or to others...would it be possible to remove all trivial words form our vocabulary...we have so many...I still have a clothes line..hardly ever used anymore--since we have those things you throw in the washing machine.. but this winter before all the blankets are put on the beds--I'M GOING TO PUT THEM ON THE LINE TO GET SOME SUNSHINE--how about them apples...even the pillow cases...and of course reap the benefits when my head hits sleepy time...must be the time of year--really get down and out this time of year--even tho It's my favorite time of year mainly cause my birthday is coming up--it's like Christmas--I get really down--not thinking is probably best when I get down and stay around the house but hey I stay around the house all the time maybe it'll be different this year...little things get me our of sorts--dropping something--like I wanted another cup of coffee--my second--but I forgot to take out the grounds and it was way to black almost like it had been scorched and no matter how much cream I put in --didn't help---and just after I poured all the coffee out --I turned around at a sound--and the cat had turned over the garbage--that was in a paper sack--on the table--knocking over all the spilled coffee grounds, and accumulated week-end garbage on the floor--I was not a happy camper---little stuff can make me think in stupid ways--went into bathroom to get some aspirin reached in and came out with aspirin bottles but when with drawing my hand...other stuff came out with them and hit the floor--makes me think I need to go back to bed--at the washing machine there's always some stuff in the back of the washer I can't reach--

Fortunately one age reacts against another..

September--Started removing some of the cages in the garden--some of the peepers would not produce anymore--this is in the lower garden--which because it's farther away I didn't get to take very good care of it...weed eated a section and planted fall greens mustard--broadleaf and curly--to eat with corn bread on cold nights in front of the fireplace...collected a load of tomatoes and picked up several small gourds (miniature) a couple of odd ball peppers. and a mess of beans...at this time of year I always start thinking in terms of apples and think maybe I should ride up to Ellijey and get some good old Winesap apples their tangy sweet taste lingers in my memory..I can only think this must be the apple Eve tempted Adam with...the rain is still sowing down..the leaves all slick and shiny even tho--there's no sun...the air is heavy--I look out through the trees and the sky that I can see is light gray...the leaves wiggle and drops fall..I drink from my coffee cup a brew I never tried before-Mocha Java from Yemen--got it from Martenez out of Atlanta...mellow..I potted up some angel wing begonias that the wind had broken off--noticing my potted plants were numerous--during the summer I had potted up some extra Christmas cactus, and some others I thought worth saving--for winter bloom--so now outside the back door I have a sizable group I have to reserve places for inside...Late afternoon thunderstorms are cutting up and making all the late afternoon days uncomfortable, hot and sweaty almost like August is coming back at us... when I was down in the garden I spotted a big box turtle, the dogs were with me me and one especially loves to haul turtles around until he eventually cracks the shell--so I calmly went over and placed the turtle in an area where he couldn't be found...he draws his head inside his shell  and from inside I hear this thank you in a low whisper...Rain and fog
still hanging around gloom and doom,, not really I love days like these..Every needle of the hemlocks holds a drop-- no birds that I can see--no sound--even the wind is not stirring, my hosta's are looking bedraggled and my lavender still looks to be involved with it surroundings I brake some off --and take a smell and glad I've got it

Isia isabella (Wooly Bear)
Hurrying along like a caterpillar in the fall-- looking for the last cozy corner in which to curl up for the winter months...

I'm growing it--Two first class herb books: Henry Beston's Herbs and the Earth and the Book of Herb Cookery by Irene Botsford Hoffmann...

A bluejay hanging around the feeder--waiting for me to hustle out and do my thing with feed--complete monogamy appears to exist among the jays; once together they stay that way for life...all other birds are against him--increase is slow with all this outside pressure--but what a sight--the blue the white the black..I'm always impressed when I honored to see him--or her--the topnotch I mustn't forget...it'slike having sunshine 

September even tho it is my birthday month has always caused a certain uneasiness--something and it's hard to explain... a freedom, wishful thinking...I grow tense--I worry--can I do anything about it--I don't even know what it is--I just feel like something is about to happen--is it the thought that I was going to have to go back to school..being confined--imprisoned more likely--
I know how a priest must feel having won my soul from torment...a new door has opened in the house of my understanding--in the country where I live quietly--I slowly develop sensitive surfaces--not calloused byte much contact accepting what's new and reflecting on it in my quiet times--mind in it's great moments returns to the primitive and instinctive...am I civilized--what's that clamoring in my blood--wildness--it's like having a ray of sunshine coming through thick foliage--an awakening...have I caught myself unaware--then all at once, like a picture in a puzzle--I see myself plainly...it was wonderful , the perfection with which my mind had concealed myself for so long..silence is almost painful...but being alone i had to follow my own injunction of silence...in this quiet country--religious ferment comes calling...every once and a while--I venture into heaven and/or hell..I've smelled the smoke--but all my hell's have been a elusive..so in fact elusive that there are no boundaries--and finding out whether you're in it or not is hard to fathom..."The trouble with hell is we shall not know it when we arrive." Swedenborg--if a man has to be scared into religion his religion isn't very much...my true nature found the animal in me--my human nature loves conclusiveness: nothing short of the categorical will satisfy me... 



During certain seasons of the year, the scent given off by the copperhead, is so strong in the woods that it can be detected easily by the human nose...(page 30 The Lost Woods) Edwin Way Teale



these little buggers hang on the outside edge of evergreens-- love arborvitae and Leylandi Cypress  I've had to remove many cause at one time this plant was used for screening things out--or was hiding things people didn't want seen--grows fast and if not kept trimmed the winds when blowing strongly would blow them over--trimming added more roots and the plant held up better against strong winds...